Sunday, March 27, 2011

Memories..that haunt you and remind you..that you are ALIVE!

A powerful symbol of grief...the Lion of which when I first gazed upon...wept on the spot! And didn't truly understand until 6 months ago...when my Mom died. You have the ability to empathize without the experience...something I learned 22+ years ago. And now having had that experience can tell you honestly to just go with it...breathe the grief and cry...listen to your heart..cheesy as that sounds...

I had the opportunity to spend the last 4 days with my boys and hubby on the Island...Vancouver Island for those in other parts of the world. It's a treasure of experience....the sights, smells..touch and listening to the birds and sea lions and waves...a true gem! And in my mind I spoke to my Mom...I talked to her like she was there the whole time...She would have LOVED it!

We spent every summer camping on the ocean in Sechelt when I was a child..counting jelly fish, climbing eucalyptus trees, dodging skunks...swimming in the ocean at sunset. With skunk soaked raccoons throwing rocks at my Dad for daring to gather water in the Dad getting eaten alive by the to say he was not a fan of on an open fire..and to this day can make a mean stew over flame and pancakes and eggs......sigh.....

The thing about grief is that it HITS you! You have no just happens out of no where and you are a weeping mess in a heart beat...even when having a good time.

I I have so much to say about this topic but am not ready to go there yet....Just want to say that the present reminds you of the past and when that happens just breathe it in ....Mom and I had a great talk this past week...even though she was not here..I could still hear her voice and feel her LOVE!

Big Mamma LOVE to you all..and will talk about grief at a deeper level when the time presents itself. XXOO


  1. Love how you write from the heart! You're an inspiration and so glad you got away and had a great time!

  2. Thanks ladies...I really needed to share that experience. And getting away was muchly needed!